— ☆ emuhii insp/hcs <3
first off, some selections from my emuhii playlist, located here:
- "i want to love like a person with no scars" (a pink — alright)
- "you have suffered enough / and warred with yourself / it's time that you won" (glen hansard & marketa irglova — falling slowly)
- "love yourself / i wish that i could take away your sadness / love yourself / i hope i can take away your sorry" (aile the shota — gomenne)
- "and you opiate this hazy head of mine / 'cause you're my medicine" (the 1975 — medicine)
- "just the sound of your smile makes me tremble / can't stop thinking about you" (enjin — say your name; full translation by me here bc this is the emuhii song ever, to me)
- "i'm not immune to days of doubt / can't guarantee that i will never let you down / everybody knows you're my sickness and the cure / everybody knows, everybody knows that i'm yours" (the naked and famous — everybody knows)
- "you're the only one i see / i don't need anybody else / the clouds clear, the sun smiles / lighting you up, countless times" (be:first — smile again)
- i like it when you smile. but i love it when i'm the reason.
- i'm scared as hell to want you. but here i am, wanting you anyway.
- therapy can't help me, but sitting on your lap while playing video games definitely can.
- everything i've never done, i want to do with you.
- love and a cough cannot be concealed. even a small cough. even a small love.
- one thing that lives rent free in my head is this one tumblr post i saw that was like "emuhii is bad because it's all about how emu would try to fix hiiro." and on some level i'm sure that's true, but it doesn't give hiiro enough credit; hiiro would try so hard with emu.
- hiiro doesn't want to make the same mistakes twice; he doesn't want to mess this up, too; he doesn't want emu to feel like he's not needed, even for a second. (cross-reference chou superhero taisen at the end when hiiro's like "doctors like you are also needed"... yeah)
- hiiro engaging in emu's interests — he's going to learn about video games. (maybe by the end of the year he'll stop saying that emu's switch is his wii.) he's going to figure out emu's favorite foods and music and try to help him in small ways (laundry! in the ex-aid novel hiiro specifically notes how emu's going to do his laundry for some reason!!!)
- and that means open and healthy communication too. obviously hiiro struggles with this (thinking about episode 16 when he seems like he's about to confess, "i just want to heal the patient in front of me", "what if you end up like the coroner"...) but if it's for emu he will try his fucking hardest. even if he doesn't know what he's feeling, he's going to try to put it into words, because emu is so so so important to him, and he deserves that much.
- now that being said... hiiro will fucking pine. hiiro will pine so much. because emu's the sun and the sun is kind to everyone; hiiro's not special, not in that regard. (episode 33 is it? when emu's like "but if [bringing saki back] will make you smile, hiiro?" that made me ache because that's how emu is with all his patients.) and hiiro's a secondary rider, he's repressed, he's got a little internalized something or other going on, but more than that, hiiro wouldn't act on his feelings if he didn't think it would make emu happy.
- i feel like hiiro's love language is gifts. he's going to get emu, like, random video game related items and emu's gonna be like "omg an et cartridge... for me........."
- and on emu's part, we have:
- so in the ex-aid novel we learn that emu's type is cute. and hiiro is adorable. his little quirks — the way he eats cakes, how into medical news he gets, the way his face looks when he's being teased — emu would think hiiro's the cutest. and he would fluster the shit out of hiiro calling him cute and pretty and adorable all the time. especially when hiiro blushes.
- and my god does he ever love hiiro's smile. that smile is worth more than a big nugget in a pokemon game. but hiiro's such a rigid perfectionist that he doesn't let many emotions pass through. emu wants to be a reason that hiiro smiles, but he wants to see everything hiiro feels, too. (and every time hiiro lets that vulnerability slip through it's like emu's won something.)
- i also feel like you could do something with... like... yeah emu wants to see hiiro smile and be the reason... but also emu coming to the realization that it's because he's into hiiro, not just because that's the way emu is. if that makes any sense? like it's not about caring about hiiro as his coworker or a patient but because he likes hiiro.
- emu's love language is physical touch and he's SO cuddly with hiiro (who loves it even if he'd never let it show on his face). sitting on his lap to play video games, holding his hand, hugging him even when they're at work where hiiro insists on being professional... hell yeah
- poppy pipopapo (my actual wife, who i'm married to) knows what's up like RIGHT AWAY. sees hiiro's giant stupid crush in 4k and is aware of it from ~episode 6 on. and she'd probably be their number one supporter because it's two people she loves being happy! if anyone is going to set these two up and act oblivious (she's stronger than god and knows exactly what she's doing) it's my poppy for sure.
- kagami haima is also fully aware of what's going on because my dude you usually have a *group* of surgery interns not just the one... he'd totally be chill about hiiro being gay no matter what hiiro himself has twisted up in his mind to believe. and he'd think emu would be a great son in law.
- kiriya on the other hand. he knows about hiiro's crush and would help him with it, under circumstances, since he's the most... like... chill about liking dudes sometimes out of the ex-aid ot4. that said is he going to take every single chance he can to tease hiiro about it before then? yeah, yeah he will. kiriya's got emotional intelligence, though, and he wouldn't go too far or make hiiro uncomfortable. he'd just also tease a lot. i also feel like kiriya would be the person emu opens up to about his feelings for hiiro for first, and also the most frequently, lmao.
- taigaaaaaaa. taiga's hard because like, yes, i love emuhii, i remember the exact date they changed my brain chemistry forever (november 18th 2022), but it is also a huge part of my headcanon that taiga's been pining for the hospital director's beautiful son since before zero day. so i think taiga would silently pine and be like "i want my beloved to be happy" about it, and nico would just call everyone involved gay
- dan kuroto is in gamer jail and could not be reached for comment.
- i also don't like pallado like at all but since he's connected to emu idk you could do something with him? i know he's very popular so if you want to include him feel free!
just make him apologize for hitting poppy
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— ☆ dear gifter!
likes that you can feel free to include if you so desire, i would like to see them:
- fluff is always welcome
- angst with a happy ending
- men crying (especially if they're secondary riders)
- men being made fun of (especially if they're secondary riders)
- men poorly processing their guilt/grief/feelings for another man/other emotional repression (especially if they're secondary riders)
- men letting themselves be vulnerable (especially if they're secondary riders)
- can you tell how normal i am about secondary riders
- taking the cast of one show and putting 'em in another show
- pining
- yearning
- anger born of worry
- 2nd or 3rd person pov (seriously you can do great things with non-self insert 2nd person give it a try sometime)
- porn with plot
- canon divergence
- characters helping each other heal emotionally
- characters getting development that they couldn't in canon for whatever reason
- patching up wounds that leads to ust
- actually you know what unresolved sexual tension in general yeah
- kissing to shut someone up especially if they're spiraling
- making out!!!!
- hurt/comfort
- use of flower motifs especially flower language awww yeah
- and on that note why would i lie i'm always a slut for hanahaki disease but only by the rules i write it with:
- can come from any stress, not just unrequited love (bc how does your body know a love is unrequited)
- and as a result the whole "can never love again if you get the surgery" thing is a myth
- post-surgery, if it is love-related hanahaki, memories will come back eventually; problems can occur if memories come back too fast and there's medication for this
- characters getting high together but also like... do not attempt if you don't know what getting high is like. you don't have to. it's okay.
- "laundry and taxes" moments
- friends with benefits but they catch feelings
- toxic friends with benefits
- and this is esoteric as hell BUT. any bmsg reference & especially novel core (obligatory playlist yeet) i will eat up. just write the words "no pressure" somewhere and damn we are so in business.
- porn without plot
- mcd that didn't happen in canon (dealing with the aftereffects of death like i'm totally okay with this i encourage it even but please don't kill off my blorbos if possible)
- coffee shop aus (i know this is specific but i'm a barista and they drive me insane thank you)
- injuries are a-ok but nothing too detailed if possible. that said blood as a motif is great so idk
- female characters being completely ignored or mischaracterized into just "girl" role
- going to go ahead and put dubcon here.
- your standard noncon, incest, huge age gaps, underage anything. no thank you !
- hurt no comfort
- angst with a sad ending because i'm weak
- abo dynamics/omegaverse
- 1st person pov
- i'm fine abt gender stuff in one (1) specifc case (ankh ooo; why would an 800 year old bird made of medals give a shit about human gender) but other than that i got enough gender to worry about & would prefer not to see it!
- pregnancy
- i feel like i don't have to say this but no chat fics or anything please lmao
- crack taken not seriously
- high school aus
- explicit self-harm (namely starving and cutting)
- literal vore
- if it is porn great that said please no like... scat... piss kink... period kink or any of that please rip
Three hours past midnight, yeah
You call me suddenly, yeah
Saying you wanna whine before you let me whine
You wanna fight me? Yeah
There are germs encamping in my head
The buffering doesn't reach my heart
All I've been doing lately is faking a smile
It's like a nail with chipped polish
It's easy to blame it on someone else
I'm tired of my part-time job, ugh
God, today's the best, too
Hi cheese
If you wanna cry, then smile and hi cheese
Bye bye
That's germs for your heart
I don't like it!
I'll be a three year old kid my whole life —
lazy, doing things my way, and talkative
I'll cat-punch with my pissed off heart
So my mentality goes bye bye-rus
It's painful to have a dream
But it's troublesome to live without a dream
It's hard to walk around fumbling
But if there was a teacher, it'd be super annoying
Just act normal?
We're emotionally unstable
But I'm actually grateful for that
God, this is seriously the best
Hi cheese
If you wanna cry, then smile and hi cheese
Bye bye
That's germs for your heart
I don't like it!
You already know
I'm tired of pretending to be serious, no more
Rain or shine, it's fine to be negative
Let me go!
Hi cheese
If you wanna cry, then smile and hi cheese
Bye bye
That's germs for your heart
I don't like it!