Hirate Yurina — Kado wo Magaru (translation by me)

[shoceted]

 Is everyone else strange?

I thought I was normal

But what does it even mean to be normal?

It's not like I have a basis for that...

 

I figured it's the middle of the night, so nobody would be around

so why am I passing through people in an alley?

I thought at least my insomnia was something I had to myself

I'm disappointed that I'm not the only one

 

What does it mean to be like something?

Saying stuff like "just live like you're being yourself"

as if I just understand what life is

What do you think you can tell me, looking down on me like that?

I don't want to fit into the image

that the people around me have decided for me

When I think about those things, I can't sleep

so I turn that corner again

 

The streetlights are so bright

that even the starry sky is half-hearted

It doesn't matter if tomorrow is sunny or rainy

The only thing that'll come is a day like today; it never changes

 

The real me isn't like this, it's like that —

but even if I try to make a denial like that, nobody cares

Huh, why am I crying...?

 

Because if you get this close you won't be able to look at me properly

It's like I'm something that's just reflected in the scenery

It doesn't matter, even if the out of focus subject is glaring or crying

If I try to make people understand, it just gets awkward

so if I just stand where I'm told I'm supposed to stand,

you won't hate me, right?

If I don't cause problems

you'll give me happiness, right?

 

What does it mean to be like something?

"Just smile like you're being yourself," you say

So when I don't want to smile

how should I kill myself?

I'm sorry, but I definitely can't be

the person everyone expects me to be

Since nobody will notice me, even when I'm not here,

I turn the corner alone

Ah ah...