Novel Core — Thanks, All My Tears (Translation by Me)

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 the morning brings

another boring day, like it's tracing over yesterday

my hand reaches for the papier-mâché sky

and i unconsciously sigh

if this life was a movie

this would be the chapter one you'd skip

compared to everyone else, though

my worries seem pretty trivial, huh?

 

the sun in the ceiling is laughing at me

it's frustrating, and i'm vexed, 

but even so,

hanging on to the past,

clinging to the present,

hoping for the future, 

i'll stand my ground and keep walking

 

even when i lose and i'm tattered

even as my tears wither

i'm hurts, i'm lonely

and i'm helpless, but —

to make the perfect last scene

one that stands out —

through the boredom and despair

that's why i'm living today too

 

when the night falls, in my room without a single knock 

my worries for tomorrow stand at my bedside

the more people who worry about me

the less places i have to run away

if i made up my mind and decided right now

to end this life

i wonder where all those responsibilities for tomorrow would go?

just kidding, i don't have that kind of courage right now

 

the moon looks down on me, dissatisfied, and rushes me

i want to run away, i'm so pathetic

but even so,

hanging on to the past,

clinging to the present,

hoping for the future, 

i'll keep acting through this life

 

even when i lose and i'm tattered

even as my tears wither

i'm hurts, i'm lonely

and i'm helpless, but —

to make the perfect last scene

one that shines — 

through the boredom and despair

that's why i'm living today too